Downsizing, rightsizing, call it what you may, many businesses are taking steps to prevent themselves from capsizing. The world is in turmoil and there is no longer any safe haven. Here in NEW YORK, we are also waking up, almost every morning, to learn of another company embarking on a redundancy exercise
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Here are some tips to help us survive redundancy:
1. No job for life.
The modern workplace is unlike the one in which our parents worked. They worked in an era when an individual could have one job for a lifetime. In the modern workplace things change rapidly. A business is here today and gone tomorrow. No employer can guarantee a job for life but they can give us an opportunity to work at one job. Acquire new skills, experience and opportunities which can be used to keep us employed for life.
2. Acquire many skills.
The reality is that many of us will change jobs several times over a lifetime and, in the process, we might go through redundancy exercises. We all need to acquire many skills in the modern workplace to make ourselves marketable. Those who will survive the current crisis are those with several skills which are relevant and marketable.
3. The job is redundant, not you.
It is important to remind yourself that it is the job that was made redundant, not you. As long as you make yourself marketable, you can never be made redundant.
4. Your feelings are real.
When an organization embarks on a redundancy exercise, workers are overcome by feelings of uncertainty, fear, anger and other emotional distress. Recognize that these feelings are real. A badly handled redundancy exercise can impact on staff morale and negatively affect the culture of the organization. Many organizations have never been able to rebuild trust due to poorly handled redundancy exercises. It is important that companies put measures in place to provide emotional support for their workers to reduce the psychological distress and to prevent those who remain behind from becoming cynical and demoralized, as a result of their feeling of upset at the manner in which the redundancy exercise was handled.
5. Deal with losses.
Redundancy is associated with multiple losses. Loss of regular income, loss of friends as we become separated from the organization, loss of routine as you no longer have a job to go to and a structured day, loss of status and function. We all go through grieving as we deal with any loss in our lives. It is important to understand the stages of grieving. The first stage, denial ('This will not affect me'; 'God will not allow this to happen to me'); the second stage, anger ('How could this happen to me'; 'This is how they have treated me after so many years'); the third stage, depression (during this stage many people become sad, they may even need medical treatment) and finally, the stage of acceptance ('I will move on').
6. Know your benefits.
If your job is made redundant, ensure that you are aware of your benefits and take full advantage of them. Redundancy can be overwhelming and sometimes we become so angry and bitter that we become blinded and we do not think logically.
7. Seek professional help.
You may need professional help to work through your emotional distress and to help to plan your life. Many of us will need financial advice to make appropriate decisions as to how to handle our money, especially if we receive redundancy payments.
8. Take difficult decisions.
Don't be afraid to make those tough and difficult decisions. You might have to sell your car. You might have to move out of your house and rent it in order to ensure that the mortgage is paid. You might have to move in with family or you might have to change your children's schools. Sometimes, we just have to make painful decisions in order to survive.
9. We will survive.
Most people survive redundancies. It can be an opportunity for you to reflect on your life; to make critical decisions; to re-tool and re-school yourself and to change careers.
10. This too will pass.
Your job has been made redundant and you are going through emotional pain, this too will pass. Life is 10 per cent what happens to us and 90 per cent how we respond to it.ALL THE BEST
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
GRAD SCHOOL DILEMMA
I am currently an accountant and I am getting tired of it, yes I do love numbers but doing the same thing over and over is not me anymore. So I decided to get a career change, I have two choices mind, one is Masters in Finance and the other is Investment banking.
I think I rather interact with people and putting a smile on their faces, so that’s my main reason for choosing those two options’, I worked with a brokerage house once before for one year and I loved it, but them I had to go back to school, so I know its something I would love also.
My main reason for not being in school as we speak is for the main reasons allot of people keep putting off school and it’s the finances. I really wanted to get In the NYU MBA program January that have just passed, but when I check out the cost per credit it was too dam expensive TUITION PER CREDIT: $1,470.
So for the past month I have bin wondering how am I going to pay for that. My original plan was to work full time and go to schools part time, in order to pay my way through school. But with a big budget like this one, I am not sure I could afford that and all my other expense.
So last night HeavenBlessing? My blog Crush lol and I were having a conversation and it lead to the discussion of grad school, I have to say this! She gave me new hope, she told me all about the programs I could apply for that fiancé grad school and I am optimistic and looking forward to exploit these sources she told me about. She is not just beautiful, she smart, and is warm person to talk to.
So I am asking for you guys help, advise me on what I should do, tell me about all the programs that you know of that could help me finance grad school.
I think I rather interact with people and putting a smile on their faces, so that’s my main reason for choosing those two options’, I worked with a brokerage house once before for one year and I loved it, but them I had to go back to school, so I know its something I would love also.
My main reason for not being in school as we speak is for the main reasons allot of people keep putting off school and it’s the finances. I really wanted to get In the NYU MBA program January that have just passed, but when I check out the cost per credit it was too dam expensive TUITION PER CREDIT: $1,470.
So for the past month I have bin wondering how am I going to pay for that. My original plan was to work full time and go to schools part time, in order to pay my way through school. But with a big budget like this one, I am not sure I could afford that and all my other expense.
So last night HeavenBlessing? My blog Crush lol and I were having a conversation and it lead to the discussion of grad school, I have to say this! She gave me new hope, she told me all about the programs I could apply for that fiancé grad school and I am optimistic and looking forward to exploit these sources she told me about. She is not just beautiful, she smart, and is warm person to talk to.
So I am asking for you guys help, advise me on what I should do, tell me about all the programs that you know of that could help me finance grad school.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
FROM A MALES PERSPECTIVE
Why can’t I be single?
For some reason whenever I meet someone and or run into an old school or work mate, and they ask me my status and I say I am single, it’s a big o I know your lying.
So I think to myself what could it be, is liar marked on my forehead? For some reason this always turn me off from a new girl, please get to know me, before you judge me.
I have bin single for one year now and at most I chose to be single, mainly because I did not think I was ready for a serious relationship.
But of late I am getting the feeling that I am ready for some one who is serious; I am really getting tired of being single and messing with random people. There is nothing like having someone special to share your life with, boy finding that someone is not always an easy job. I don’t really do dating sites, when I was in college I use to meet allot of people on MySpace and some other social sites, but as I said I was not read to settle down I was unstable and just wanted t have fun.
I read allot if females profile on here that are really smart and seem attractive, but they all suffer from lack of man syndrome, so I am here hoping to find an educated, beautiful, and someone who has a good sense of humor, and they on the other hand is searching for the same of the opposite sex, so I came to the conclusion that there are men out there, females just need to look in the right places. Another thing is that you guys are not going to find a man that has the whole package; I am not suggesting that you settle for less.
I know it’s hard to find a young educated man, that is not already married or has a girl. At times we are in a relationship and one simple thing happen and we just let go, letting go is not always the best thing to do, I have done it and today I wish I did not. We as human need to learn how to work out our differences (however if its severe let it go, don’t stay if you being abuse in any way or form) no one is perfect and if you can find it in your heart to forgive someone then do it, it might now work out in all cases but in some it will.
Men do cheat, is it right? Well I will leave you to decide that. Females might have the perception that males cheat because they don’t respect their feeling, but that’s not always the case. People cheat for different reasons and the funny enough some guys cheat for no reasons, an often this is the worst thing to understand, I know you might be saying what you mean by no reason. But the relationship could be as good as gold and a man still cheat, sex life might be great, financial life might be great, communication is good. But them the guys still cheat. I know this leaves females baffled and they often think there is no hope in men. But there is a thing call TIME. When a man is just not ready to settle down, there is nothing you can do to keep him at bay, and I say it again nothing.
A guys mentally is totally different, females often meets a guy, fall in love and say they want to spend the rest of their lives with this guy, for males its not necessarily the same.
A man has to feel that’s its time to settle down, and this feeling come in every ones life at a different age, some early ,some late, and some too late.
I have met some great females in my life, but at the time I was just not ready to settle down, I was really not, and I was honest enough to tell them, some were hurt by my honesty and some were happy I came straight forward and told them.
However most men, don’t have the guts to do this, because of many reasons, and the most selfish one is that, they wont get in the panties if they tell you guys the truth, which is not always the case. So instead of rushing in a relationship with a guy and getting hurt try to find out where the guys mind is, its simple but could be complicated if your kind of slow. One of the simple and obvious things that girls miss it this, you are with a guy any every serious plan he makes he says HE, and not WE, that mean your simple not important, get that in your head.
If your with a guy and he is buying something such as a house or car and your not involve, and your input don’t matter, get with it your not important.
If a guy is very conservative in spending money on you, chances are he doesn’t think much of you. Don’t get me wrong if he can’t afford to take you to Paris that’s different.
When I am dating someone I can see a future with I go all out, on the other had if I don’t think its going to work out, I am not going too hard on my pocket.
So I am suggesting this one little thing before you rush in a relationship try to get to know where in life the person is, because not because a guy is 50 years of age mean he is ready, and not because he is 22 mean is cant be ready, each man is different. I am happy I started at a tender age, so my adventure is now over and I am looking forward to find someone to really enjoy what life has to offer.
Its black history month so i have to include at least a pic in each post this month.PICTURE BELOW BOB MARLEY THE GREATEST REGGAE ARTISTE OF ALL TIME (
ONE LOVE - BOB MARLEY
To be continued:
For some reason whenever I meet someone and or run into an old school or work mate, and they ask me my status and I say I am single, it’s a big o I know your lying.
So I think to myself what could it be, is liar marked on my forehead? For some reason this always turn me off from a new girl, please get to know me, before you judge me.
I have bin single for one year now and at most I chose to be single, mainly because I did not think I was ready for a serious relationship.
But of late I am getting the feeling that I am ready for some one who is serious; I am really getting tired of being single and messing with random people. There is nothing like having someone special to share your life with, boy finding that someone is not always an easy job. I don’t really do dating sites, when I was in college I use to meet allot of people on MySpace and some other social sites, but as I said I was not read to settle down I was unstable and just wanted t have fun.
I read allot if females profile on here that are really smart and seem attractive, but they all suffer from lack of man syndrome, so I am here hoping to find an educated, beautiful, and someone who has a good sense of humor, and they on the other hand is searching for the same of the opposite sex, so I came to the conclusion that there are men out there, females just need to look in the right places. Another thing is that you guys are not going to find a man that has the whole package; I am not suggesting that you settle for less.
I know it’s hard to find a young educated man, that is not already married or has a girl. At times we are in a relationship and one simple thing happen and we just let go, letting go is not always the best thing to do, I have done it and today I wish I did not. We as human need to learn how to work out our differences (however if its severe let it go, don’t stay if you being abuse in any way or form) no one is perfect and if you can find it in your heart to forgive someone then do it, it might now work out in all cases but in some it will.
Men do cheat, is it right? Well I will leave you to decide that. Females might have the perception that males cheat because they don’t respect their feeling, but that’s not always the case. People cheat for different reasons and the funny enough some guys cheat for no reasons, an often this is the worst thing to understand, I know you might be saying what you mean by no reason. But the relationship could be as good as gold and a man still cheat, sex life might be great, financial life might be great, communication is good. But them the guys still cheat. I know this leaves females baffled and they often think there is no hope in men. But there is a thing call TIME. When a man is just not ready to settle down, there is nothing you can do to keep him at bay, and I say it again nothing.
A guys mentally is totally different, females often meets a guy, fall in love and say they want to spend the rest of their lives with this guy, for males its not necessarily the same.
A man has to feel that’s its time to settle down, and this feeling come in every ones life at a different age, some early ,some late, and some too late.
I have met some great females in my life, but at the time I was just not ready to settle down, I was really not, and I was honest enough to tell them, some were hurt by my honesty and some were happy I came straight forward and told them.
However most men, don’t have the guts to do this, because of many reasons, and the most selfish one is that, they wont get in the panties if they tell you guys the truth, which is not always the case. So instead of rushing in a relationship with a guy and getting hurt try to find out where the guys mind is, its simple but could be complicated if your kind of slow. One of the simple and obvious things that girls miss it this, you are with a guy any every serious plan he makes he says HE, and not WE, that mean your simple not important, get that in your head.
If your with a guy and he is buying something such as a house or car and your not involve, and your input don’t matter, get with it your not important.
If a guy is very conservative in spending money on you, chances are he doesn’t think much of you. Don’t get me wrong if he can’t afford to take you to Paris that’s different.
When I am dating someone I can see a future with I go all out, on the other had if I don’t think its going to work out, I am not going too hard on my pocket.
So I am suggesting this one little thing before you rush in a relationship try to get to know where in life the person is, because not because a guy is 50 years of age mean he is ready, and not because he is 22 mean is cant be ready, each man is different. I am happy I started at a tender age, so my adventure is now over and I am looking forward to find someone to really enjoy what life has to offer.
Its black history month so i have to include at least a pic in each post this month.PICTURE BELOW BOB MARLEY THE GREATEST REGGAE ARTISTE OF ALL TIME (
ONE LOVE - BOB MARLEY
To be continued:
Friday, January 30, 2009
Where are my black brothers?
So yesterday I was in a meeting, and yet again I am the only black men in the room, not that I felt uncomfortable, but I was pissed, I am fucking tired of not seeing black in one of my meetings.
so I got on the train 8 in the morning heading to an accounting executive meeting at 42nd street, while on the train, I was hoping that at least I would see one black men in this meeting, the train was giving some trouble so I got the a little bit late, finally I go there sing in at the from desk take the little picture for the ID and took the elevator to the
25 floor of the building, when I exited the elevator, I was greeted by warm group of WHITE Males, and they took my coat and gave me my name tag. It was early, so they were fruits being served, so I took a couple grapes and a few slices of pineapple.
So I went in the conference room and it was not fully occupied as yet, which mean I was not the last one to get there, I was there counting the amount of WHITE males and Mix females, then I sat and waited for like 20 minutes to see a black men enter the door, but that was not about to happen, apart from myself and another BLACK FEMALE the only thing black was the platter our folder with the presentation were placed on.
The presentation went well and we came to an agreement and that was that, I met a very smart guy, the guy that created the transit check system and we started a conversation, to my surprise this guy was smarter than I though he was, he is a physicists, and Lawyer, he was born in Brooklyn like many of us New Yorkers, he went to school here and then to Chicago.
So I think to myself if he can do it, why cant allot other do the same, he was not brought up in a wealthy family, he had to work hard like allot of us do. (He is WHITE)
One thing I HATE is when people blame their lack of achievement on their race, there is nothing in the world that gets me upset like this.
Its the most common excuse I have herd from young black males, and I often use myself as an example, which I hate to do, I really don’t want anyone to think I am trying to say I am better off then they are. Because I don’t think I am, I am just more focus.
The ratio is already seven women to one men (7-1) and we have say 90% of the prison population being black, so where are the black women going to find a black men if they choose to date one.
I was reading a friend blog about how educated black me think they are the shit, but in fact the rate at which the uneducated black men are going to prison they have a right to feel that way. The one that so happen to stay out of jail maybe 20% of that amount is educated so tell me now, who should be blame, its not the educated guys, it’s the one who are either in prison and the uneducated ones.
With the ever increasing rate of interracial dating, which seem to attract the educated black men, its going to be very difficult for an educated black women to get a educated black men, because they are in competition with other races.
To be continued……
so I got on the train 8 in the morning heading to an accounting executive meeting at 42nd street, while on the train, I was hoping that at least I would see one black men in this meeting, the train was giving some trouble so I got the a little bit late, finally I go there sing in at the from desk take the little picture for the ID and took the elevator to the
25 floor of the building, when I exited the elevator, I was greeted by warm group of WHITE Males, and they took my coat and gave me my name tag. It was early, so they were fruits being served, so I took a couple grapes and a few slices of pineapple.
So I went in the conference room and it was not fully occupied as yet, which mean I was not the last one to get there, I was there counting the amount of WHITE males and Mix females, then I sat and waited for like 20 minutes to see a black men enter the door, but that was not about to happen, apart from myself and another BLACK FEMALE the only thing black was the platter our folder with the presentation were placed on.
The presentation went well and we came to an agreement and that was that, I met a very smart guy, the guy that created the transit check system and we started a conversation, to my surprise this guy was smarter than I though he was, he is a physicists, and Lawyer, he was born in Brooklyn like many of us New Yorkers, he went to school here and then to Chicago.
So I think to myself if he can do it, why cant allot other do the same, he was not brought up in a wealthy family, he had to work hard like allot of us do. (He is WHITE)
One thing I HATE is when people blame their lack of achievement on their race, there is nothing in the world that gets me upset like this.
Its the most common excuse I have herd from young black males, and I often use myself as an example, which I hate to do, I really don’t want anyone to think I am trying to say I am better off then they are. Because I don’t think I am, I am just more focus.
The ratio is already seven women to one men (7-1) and we have say 90% of the prison population being black, so where are the black women going to find a black men if they choose to date one.
I was reading a friend blog about how educated black me think they are the shit, but in fact the rate at which the uneducated black men are going to prison they have a right to feel that way. The one that so happen to stay out of jail maybe 20% of that amount is educated so tell me now, who should be blame, its not the educated guys, it’s the one who are either in prison and the uneducated ones.
With the ever increasing rate of interracial dating, which seem to attract the educated black men, its going to be very difficult for an educated black women to get a educated black men, because they are in competition with other races.
To be continued……
Thursday, January 29, 2009
George W. clown bush
If your ever having a bad day, just go to youtube and look up your past president and i am sure he will chair you up,because he sure is funny!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
JOKE OF THE DAY
A man was pulled over for speeding down the highway; the officer came to the driver’s window and said, "Sir, may I see your driver’s license and registration?" The man said, "Well officer I don't have a license, it was taken away for a DUI." The officer, in surprise, said," What, do you have a registration for the vehicle?" So the man replied, "No sir, the car is not mine I stole it, but I am pretty sure I say a registration card in the glove box when I put the gun in it." The officer stepped back, "There is a gun in the glove box?!?" The man sighed and said, "Yes sir, I used to kill the woman who owns the car before I stuffed her in the trunk." The officer steps toward the back of the car and says," Sir do not move, I am calling for backup." The officer calls for backup and about ten minutes another highway patrolman arrives. He walks up to the window slowly and asks the man for his driver’s license and registration. The man said," Yes officer here it right here." It all checked out so the officer said," Is there a gun in the glove box sir?" The man laughs and says," No officer why would there be a gun in the glove box." He opened the glove box and showed him that there was no gun. The second officer asked him to open the trunk because he had reason to believe that there was a body in it. The man agrees and opens the trunk, no dead body. The second officer says, "Sir I do not understand, the officer that pulled you over said that you did not have a license, the car was stolen, there was a gun in the glove box, and a dead body in the trunk." The man looks the officer in the eyes and says, "Yeah and I'll bet he said I was speeding too."
Thursday, January 22, 2009
IS LOVE FOR ME?
At the age of 16 was the first time I think I mean I knew I fell in love, o my god it was such a great feeling, everything was just perfect to the T.I mean I was just finishing up my final exams in high school after months of long and hard studying.
So I am the type of guy who love to have a nice time, go to the north coast that’s where all the beaches are in Jamaica.
One day I was sitting in the Science Lab in my physics class, doing a lab and I was thinking long and hard how to leave school in an unforgettable manner, them I remember that one of my friend told me he was going to the north coast with a bunch of his friends, so I decided to plan a buss ride.
In order to do this I need to get a sure yes from all the invitees, so on my last call on the Friday night I Called my fried (lets just call her K) and someone picked up the phone with the most beautiful voice I have never herd at the time, to my surprise it was her aunt, and off course I was trying to get as much people on the bus as possible.So she asked me if I am the guy who is planning the bus ride I said yes, she expressed her interest, that was a bit of a good news for me, more money in my pocket, or at least so I thought.
The conversation went on for a very long time to my surprise, and I find she started asking me personal questions and I was single so I was really exited.
A few days later we decided to meet up to see what each other looked like, and man was I impressed, she was very beautiful and the smile on her face just brightens up my day.We got close and I gave her hug, and immediately she made and awkward move, and giggled I was like wow, I am sorry, she said that OK. To my surprise I had hit the spot on my fist encounter with her, now tell me if that's not just great.
A few days went by and here came the day I was waiting for, it was the morning of our excursion, I got there a bit late because I had to pick up a few friends. When I got there my eye was just fixated on this petite clear skin brown eye girl, with her hair blowing in the wind, and dress in the top of her bathing suit and a very short shorts I was mesmerized.I knocked my self for a min and got back to reality, paid the bus drive his portion of the money and pocketed what every I had make after all I am a business man.(Lol).The ride was about four hours and I was getting a bit sleepy, so I started to learn over so I could rest my head on her shoulder, she welcomed it I was like wow that’s is so sweet, so the ride continued and it was her turn to get some rest so she placed her head on my shoulder, you could just imagine how I felt at this time, there was no one else in the bus as far as I care, this was our moment and I was blind to whatever else that was going on.
We finally got there, and the idea was that we were going to stay at a hotel for one night and get packing the next morning. So when the bus pulled up the entrance of the hotel I got out of my little world and start asking for money, to my surprise no one had planned to stay at the hotel they were all broke I got so mad I totally forget that I was in my little world.
So I asked where did you guys planned to sleep, they said in the bus, so I replied you guys cant bathe and change in the bus! So to cut a long story short and look good at the same time I decided that I will pay the bill but only for two rooms. They said o no problem we will all crash in your room, I was like heck no! And the lady did not like the idea, but when I got to the front desk and herd the rate I said OK just give me one room, there was no way in the world I could have paid for two.
So we all had to stay in one room, it was allot of us cant remember the exact number but we made it work, so there was no sex for me, well not really just a bit of foreplay with a little action, which did not last long before someone came running in the bathroom spoiled the mood so that was that. We had a great time and we all went back home.She decide to spend the week at my place it was more than happy to have her, and we had allot of fun, just use your imagination, one week just locked up in the house.
WHERE IT ALL WENT DOWN
So it was time to go to college, I was really exited and she was for me also, so I packed my stuff and off I went, we had our agreement that we would see each other every other week end. That did not materialized, so my fist semester went by really quick and the second one started a week later.This was the semester leading up to December break, I met this young lady, we shred the same birth date which was just so amazing, she really liked me and I had like her too, but I made a promise to my girl that I would do nothing to jeopardize what we had.(lets call that girl A). So one day were in a class cant remember which one it was but I know it was the last class of the day, I packed up all my stuff and stood up to leave the room, them I saw A walking in my direction, I was like what now, she came very close push me to the desk and started kissing me, I was so astound, I did not know what to do but kiss her back lol.
She confessed that she was like totally in love with me and I had no idea she was very beautiful but I was not trying to mess up, so one date I told he to take a walk with me and I told her listen I have a girl and I really don’t want to mess up because I really love her.
THE TEARS
She started to cry I felt so bad, I could not help but to cry too, this was the first time in my life I really hurt someone feelings, I mean that I know of, and it did not felt good at all.I did not know that someone could let me cry for something like that, but I guess I was not the thought guy I though I was.So the semester went by really fast and it was December, I was really exited to go home, and see my girl, I could not wait I started packing the day of my final exam. The day I decide to drive home was December 24, Christmas eve, there is a party that every one normally goes and we had planned to meet up there.
It was about 11:00 O clock at night and we met at her parent store in the mall, and went on our way to the festivity, but them I realized that she was not herself, she was really acting out of character, she did not hugged or kissed me when we saw each other, this was really weird,.
I started to question it; let’s call her C. and me J
J-what’s wrong?
C- Nothing
J-come on something is wrong, what is it?
C- I don’t wan to talk about it now.
J- I was so fucking pissed; I came all this way to see this girl and she is like totally acting up.
C- Then she said I have something to tell you!
With my heart pounding and eyes sunken in I asked what the fuck is it.
C-lets go back to the shop
J- OK lets go, and hurry up, we walked briskly to the shop
C- OK J I am sorry, but I slept with my X
J I was so fucking heart broken, I could not bear standing up and looking in her face,
C- I am sorry (sobbing)
J – No your not, you fucking bitch
So stormed out of the store and went home, crying like a little kid, trust me I was so devastated, them instantly ‘A” a flashed in my mind, look how I hurt this girl just to stay faithful to C, now C hurts me and now I am here crying and saying how stupid I had, I should have fucked all those girls who wanted to give me some action. This bitch(at the time that all came to me mouth so excuse the word now) was creeping while I was trying to keep my dick in my pants, I told her I never wanted to her or hear from her ever again.
So months went by off course I was still in love with her, A was still in love with me, but I did not want her t know that girl had messed up so I kept it cool
So 5 years, I herd from A the girl who kisses me and I hurt her feeling, she told me she never stopped loving me and she is having problem with her husband, she want to pack up and her and her kids stuff and leave his ass.
Them Tuesday December 20, 2009, I got a message on my black berry from K, that’s C niece, she wanted to know what am I doing this spring break, so I told her I am going to Jamaica for ATI, she said take me, I said sure, just book your ticket for the last week of July.
A few moments went by and she said C want to go as well, I said OK cool everyone in the world could come, as long as they have their hotel booked and their air fair.
Them she started a conversation talking about how much I loved C and I said yes I did, she said well take her, I said not under my dead body, she is engaged I am miserable and she is happy in her relationship I don’t want to mess that up, she said she is about to brake up with the guy, I sent her about A million LOL’s.
I was not trying to get back with that girl. Hello no.
She is engaged let he work out her differences with her to be husband, leave me in my single lonely life.
Once bitten twice shy
At the age of 16 was the first time I think I mean I knew I fell in love, o my god it was such a great feeling, everything was just perfect to the T.I mean I was just finishing up my final exams in high school after months of long and hard studying.
So I am the type of guy who love to have a nice time, go to the north coast that’s where all the beaches are in Jamaica.
One day I was sitting in the Science Lab in my physics class, doing a lab and I was thinking long and hard how to leave school in an unforgettable manner, them I remember that one of my friend told me he was going to the north coast with a bunch of his friends, so I decided to plan a buss ride.
In order to do this I need to get a sure yes from all the invitees, so on my last call on the Friday night I Called my fried (lets just call her K) and someone picked up the phone with the most beautiful voice I have never herd at the time, to my surprise it was her aunt, and off course I was trying to get as much people on the bus as possible.So she asked me if I am the guy who is planning the bus ride I said yes, she expressed her interest, that was a bit of a good news for me, more money in my pocket, or at least so I thought.
The conversation went on for a very long time to my surprise, and I find she started asking me personal questions and I was single so I was really exited.
A few days later we decided to meet up to see what each other looked like, and man was I impressed, she was very beautiful and the smile on her face just brightens up my day.We got close and I gave her hug, and immediately she made and awkward move, and giggled I was like wow, I am sorry, she said that OK. To my surprise I had hit the spot on my fist encounter with her, now tell me if that's not just great.
A few days went by and here came the day I was waiting for, it was the morning of our excursion, I got there a bit late because I had to pick up a few friends. When I got there my eye was just fixated on this petite clear skin brown eye girl, with her hair blowing in the wind, and dress in the top of her bathing suit and a very short shorts I was mesmerized.I knocked my self for a min and got back to reality, paid the bus drive his portion of the money and pocketed what every I had make after all I am a business man.(Lol).The ride was about four hours and I was getting a bit sleepy, so I started to learn over so I could rest my head on her shoulder, she welcomed it I was like wow that’s is so sweet, so the ride continued and it was her turn to get some rest so she placed her head on my shoulder, you could just imagine how I felt at this time, there was no one else in the bus as far as I care, this was our moment and I was blind to whatever else that was going on.
We finally got there, and the idea was that we were going to stay at a hotel for one night and get packing the next morning. So when the bus pulled up the entrance of the hotel I got out of my little world and start asking for money, to my surprise no one had planned to stay at the hotel they were all broke I got so mad I totally forget that I was in my little world.
So I asked where did you guys planned to sleep, they said in the bus, so I replied you guys cant bathe and change in the bus! So to cut a long story short and look good at the same time I decided that I will pay the bill but only for two rooms. They said o no problem we will all crash in your room, I was like heck no! And the lady did not like the idea, but when I got to the front desk and herd the rate I said OK just give me one room, there was no way in the world I could have paid for two.
So we all had to stay in one room, it was allot of us cant remember the exact number but we made it work, so there was no sex for me, well not really just a bit of foreplay with a little action, which did not last long before someone came running in the bathroom spoiled the mood so that was that. We had a great time and we all went back home.She decide to spend the week at my place it was more than happy to have her, and we had allot of fun, just use your imagination, one week just locked up in the house.
WHERE IT ALL WENT DOWN
So it was time to go to college, I was really exited and she was for me also, so I packed my stuff and off I went, we had our agreement that we would see each other every other week end. That did not materialized, so my fist semester went by really quick and the second one started a week later.This was the semester leading up to December break, I met this young lady, we shred the same birth date which was just so amazing, she really liked me and I had like her too, but I made a promise to my girl that I would do nothing to jeopardize what we had.(lets call that girl A). So one day were in a class cant remember which one it was but I know it was the last class of the day, I packed up all my stuff and stood up to leave the room, them I saw A walking in my direction, I was like what now, she came very close push me to the desk and started kissing me, I was so astound, I did not know what to do but kiss her back lol.
She confessed that she was like totally in love with me and I had no idea she was very beautiful but I was not trying to mess up, so one date I told he to take a walk with me and I told her listen I have a girl and I really don’t want to mess up because I really love her.
THE TEARS
She started to cry I felt so bad, I could not help but to cry too, this was the first time in my life I really hurt someone feelings, I mean that I know of, and it did not felt good at all.I did not know that someone could let me cry for something like that, but I guess I was not the thought guy I though I was.So the semester went by really fast and it was December, I was really exited to go home, and see my girl, I could not wait I started packing the day of my final exam. The day I decide to drive home was December 24, Christmas eve, there is a party that every one normally goes and we had planned to meet up there.
It was about 11:00 O clock at night and we met at her parent store in the mall, and went on our way to the festivity, but them I realized that she was not herself, she was really acting out of character, she did not hugged or kissed me when we saw each other, this was really weird,.
I started to question it; let’s call her C. and me J
J-what’s wrong?
C- Nothing
J-come on something is wrong, what is it?
C- I don’t wan to talk about it now.
J- I was so fucking pissed; I came all this way to see this girl and she is like totally acting up.
C- Then she said I have something to tell you!
With my heart pounding and eyes sunken in I asked what the fuck is it.
C-lets go back to the shop
J- OK lets go, and hurry up, we walked briskly to the shop
C- OK J I am sorry, but I slept with my X
J I was so fucking heart broken, I could not bear standing up and looking in her face,
C- I am sorry (sobbing)
J – No your not, you fucking bitch
So stormed out of the store and went home, crying like a little kid, trust me I was so devastated, them instantly ‘A” a flashed in my mind, look how I hurt this girl just to stay faithful to C, now C hurts me and now I am here crying and saying how stupid I had, I should have fucked all those girls who wanted to give me some action. This bitch(at the time that all came to me mouth so excuse the word now) was creeping while I was trying to keep my dick in my pants, I told her I never wanted to her or hear from her ever again.
So months went by off course I was still in love with her, A was still in love with me, but I did not want her t know that girl had messed up so I kept it cool
So 5 years, I herd from A the girl who kisses me and I hurt her feeling, she told me she never stopped loving me and she is having problem with her husband, she want to pack up and her and her kids stuff and leave his ass.
Them Tuesday December 20, 2009, I got a message on my black berry from K, that’s C niece, she wanted to know what am I doing this spring break, so I told her I am going to Jamaica for ATI, she said take me, I said sure, just book your ticket for the last week of July.
A few moments went by and she said C want to go as well, I said OK cool everyone in the world could come, as long as they have their hotel booked and their air fair.
Them she started a conversation talking about how much I loved C and I said yes I did, she said well take her, I said not under my dead body, she is engaged I am miserable and she is happy in her relationship I don’t want to mess that up, she said she is about to brake up with the guy, I sent her about A million LOL’s.
I was not trying to get back with that girl. Hello no.
She is engaged let he work out her differences with her to be husband, leave me in my single lonely life.
Once bitten twice shy
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